Sigh.

Over the past couple of months, with everything that has come up, I've managed to wipe out my savings.

So, of course, my brakes aren't working right on my car now.

This is the scariest place I have ever been in financially. EVER.

So, after a good scared cry, I looked at my budget. Looked at what I could trim, and what I couldn't. Asked my mom if she would be willing to watch Julie a few nights per week so I can look for a part time job. Maybe just something to get me through the holidays. Maybe something a little more permanent *but, hopefully no more than 6 months* I don't have a problem working, infact, since my daughter has been born, I have consistently worked two jobs, w/o much complaining. I don't WANT to work 7 dyas a week, but I will if I have to.

On the car front, my coworker is going to look at it for me on Sunday. Then, another coworker's husband is pretty high up in the discount autoparts world, so I am going to give him a call to see how much everything is for my car, with his discount of course. Sometimes, I feel fortunate for all my stupidity. At least I have people who are willing to help when they can.

Then, after everything is said and done, I am going to start busting my rump to get my finances in place. To me, a good mother is someone who sets an example for her child ... and I am not leading by example right now. In fact, I would be pretty ashamed if my daughter could comprehend our financial state at all.